172 Focusing on the future..

So what’s going on here…

Let’s just say that …

How come the days keep beeing so short.. ? A new day just starts – and then it’s suddenly night and time to go to sleep.

What is really going on here.. is that both dude and I have freekishly much to do. Let’s just say we realized that we can’t continue living the way we do now. We don’t see eachother much.. and when we see eachother we see the top of the forehead – the part that is sticking up above the book when studying. Some days we decide that we have time to eat dinner together for half an hour – even though we know we really don’t have that time. Other days we eat separately while studying. Sad.. I know. But that’s the truth. We don’t like the situation. We want to spend time together. And we take every opportunity possible to do so. We are gonna try to cut down a little bit to get more time together.. and more time to rest. Next semester dude is gonna take one course less than he does now. And we hope that will help.

We’re gonna make this.. there is really not much we can do at the moment – except for focusing on the light in the end of the tunnel. It’s gonna be better in the future. Already by next semester it’s gonna be a little bit less. We’re not gonna put ourself in this situation again. …it isn’t that fun you know..

 We’ll have the summer off from studies. And we do have shabat – an entire day only for the family.. and Friday evening off from studying. In a few years we will not have to study at all. And we are looking forward to those less busy days. We know they will come – and that keeps us going. 

I don’t write this post to complain. There’s nothing to complain about. I have the most amazing family a woman can have.. A husband that gives 100 % for his family. He’s working hard, studying hard, sleeping very little.. but still he gives all his spare time(if there is any at all) for us. He spends time with the kids – and he takes time with me.. time that he really doesn’t have. We are blessed with the most adorable kids… They are really a gift, and we love them so much.

Don’t feel sorry for us.. there is nothing to be sorry about. We aren’t sorry!! I write this post to explain… to explain why we aren’t here so much.. here in the blogosphere. I’ve got to admit.. that when I do have the time to write – I don’t even know what to write about.. I don’t know where to start. I don’t know how to find the energy to express what is within me.. what I want to say. I’m not even sure I want to say anything. There are other things that are more important. Sure.. I could come up with jokes, funny pictures, or odd news. I could get myself the time for that while eating breakfast or when I need a break to wake up when some heavy book is making me sleepy. But why – why would I do that? I don’t blog to produce posts. I blog because I want to do it.. and when I don’t want – I don’t do it.

I’m gonna hit the shower now.. and go to sleep.. and somewhere on the way I’m gonna try to get dude to join me going to sleep early.